Mathias was never one to
comfort people. Whenever he would stumble across someone in tears, he’d usually
awkwardly back away to give them space or stay and offer a listening ear,
depending on how close he was with the person. Either way, he wasn’t the type
of hug it out and gently ask them what was wrong. The tears would come anyway.
Even after, he would say that he would keep the small encounter a secret, just
so that they wouldn’t talk about it after. To him, that was okay.
When he found Arzen crying for
the first time, he backed away in a flustered kind of panic. He wasn’t sure if
she heard or noticed him there, and upon peeking back inside, it turned out
that she actually didn’t. That sent conflicting feelings up his spine.
She was the kind of upset where
she took fistfuls of her hair and gave an angry tug. The kind of upset where
she had to muffle her sobs because someone else could hear and potentially
barge in. No one ever did. Mathias took the moment to consider if she was
thankful for the privacy or even more tired of the never-ending pain.
It had been roughly three years
since they had come across each other, two since he first came upon her crying.
He recalled seeing her with her uniform and her shoulder-length, sort of boyish
hair that she sprung back in Freshman year. After that, he noticed that she was
growing it out. A few commented on it, but no one ever talked about it.
He noticed and felt that same
pang in his chest. Her hair, which hung straightly and nicely down her back,
which she bunned or tied or balled in her fists, was one of her more striking
assets. He wasn’t so sure why.
She was just laying on her bed
now, eyes red and swollen from crying, lips dry and her face an odd kind of
pale that never really colored her features. She was fairer than the norm,
sure, but never pale. Paleness reminded him of sickness and of inching towards
death, of impending cold that shot icicles up one’s veins.
He was just sitting on the tree
branch that sort of inched towards her bedroom, but kept back because he didn’t
know if he should even come in, knock, or whatever. Mathias came closer,
stopping at the glass window and took a breath.
After seconds of insane
courage, he knocked.
She didn’t jump – not at all.
Arzen was used to his visits, occurring randomly from within the school to in
her bedroom. It was weird. Having a male in her bedroom screamed “terror”, but
it wasn’t as bad as she thought. He never lingered when she was asleep, gave
her space and asked if she wanted him there.
So when she rolled to face him
and saw him waiting for her approval, she merely gave a small nod. Mathias then
opened the window and climbed inside, landing neatly without a sound. The
Technikan approached the bed, only to hesitate and just grab a chair and sit by
the corner, waiting for her to talk.
It was always like that. He
would wait for her to initiate, because he was never sure of what to say. He
hated it, mostly. The waiting part. He wished that he could talk. Open the
conversation and say anything – it was just what he wanted to do.
So, he attempted.
“Who did this?”
It was a pretty weird question
to most. There were no wounds or scars or bruises.
Not on the outside, at least.
She replied with a small smile.
“No one.”
Somehow, he knew that she was
lying. But he didn’t press on.
“I’m just tired.”
“You’re always tired.”
“Junior year just ended,” she
defended, sitting up right after. Her hair was nearly a mess, curls around her.
Arzen awkwardly tied it into a single ponytail, “But I really am tired. There’s
no helping that.”
“D’you think you can…?”
She went quiet.
He took that as either a ‘no’
or a ‘not yet’.
“It’s not in the notebook, if
you’re wondering.” The little red notebook came to mind. “It’s just in here.
Trust me. You don’t want to hear it.”
He wanted to know.
“Let me ask again: who did
this?”
She looked at him.
“There are two people to blame.
One of which is myself.”
* * * * *
He stayed.
They talked more, and his
presence comforted her somehow. She eased down and excused herself to get more
food, and she came back with a bag of chocolates she ended up sharing with him.
Mathias wasn’t a fan of sweet foods, but ate it just to make her feel better.
He didn’t feel like leaving her – it just didn’t feel right.
“Don’t you have somewhere to
be?”
“You want me to leave?”
“I – I never said that.”
“So why…?”
Arzen shrugged as she typed at
her laptop. “Technika might need you.”
“I’m sure it can last a few
more hours without me, darling.”
“Cissa is going to kill you,”
she muttered.
“I’ve escaped her death threats
many times. And if she kills me, she’s got my blood on her hands. And I don’t
think she wants that,” he added as an afterthought.
Arzen held back a smile. “Why
are you even here?”
“Aside from my duty as your
ever-faithful Watcher? Just visiting.” He paused. “Do I need any more of a
reason, Arzen?”
“…not at all. You have better
things to do in Technika. Just. Why here?”
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“Techika gets stuffy.” Arzen
glared.
“That’s my world you’re
insulting, Prat.”
“I – I was kidding…and let’s
not bring up that horrid nickname.”
“The Watcher seemed to enjoy
calling you Prat,” she teased, and he grimaced.
“I’ll enclose him in a block of
ice if he tries again.”
* * * * *
She was asleep.
Mathias was preparing to leave.
He never stayed when she slept, remaining only when he was sure that she was
locked in slumber. Watching her would be creepy, climbing in was out of the
question. And in a way, she was right.
Technika needed him somehow.
“Paging Gletscher.”
He glanced at the communicator
on his wrist, seeing the holographic image of Amaya Himmel appear.
“Cissa needs you back ASAP. She found something sticky in
the data clouds and needs you to fish it out.”
“I’ll return in a few,” he
promised. She gave him a sturdy look, her orange eyes analyzing him carefully.
“You’re watching Arzen again, aren’t you?”
“Doesn’t matter.” He waved it
off. “I’m coming back.”
“You better. Now stop stalking and come back, you
love-struck fool.”
Mathias stammered out –
stammered! – a hasty retort, but the call ended with the sight of the pleased
smirk on Amaya’s haughty face.
“Did you call him, Amaya?”
“Just did, Cissa.” She met
Cissa’s maroon eyes, “Do me a favor and tell him to stop being such an idiot
when he gets back.”
“An idiot–?”
“Yeah.” She turned back to
leave, “Ask him to unclog a data cloud and he can do that easily. Leave him
with Arzen Venura in the mortal realm and he’s reduced to stammering and a
flushed face.” A snicker rose from her throat, “He has it bad.”
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