"I envy you."
Another
beer rushed down his throat. The American gulped it down and put the bottle
back on the counter, half of it remaining and still remaining cold. As blue
eyes scanned the area around him, he decided that perhaps another half hour
would do. The people inside the bar had decreased by a significant amount;
there were only a few men here and there left, drinking their scotch and
whiskey silently to themselves. Peters, on the other hand, just needed a quick
fix after the day. Some beer to go and perhaps a shot or two, and he’d be fine.
This was no night for picking a lady up, nor was it a night for staying
overtime at headquarters and working his ass off ‘til dawn. This was a night
for himself.
Or
so he initially thought. He heard the bartender chuckle understandingly,
speaking in rather strained English as he comforted some poor soul who sat in
front of him. Peters didn’t spare a glance and merely grabbed hold of the green
beer bottle once more, preparing to take another drink and order another. With a
roll of his eyes, he tried to ignore that all of this would kill his wallet.
Payday would come within the week, so why not blow all his remaining cash?
Mentally, though, he reminded himself to spare a reasonable amount. He needed
to pay apartment rent somehow.
So
begrudgingly, the man took out his wallet and tucked a few hundred yen in the
pocket containing his ID. That would go to the jar in the corner of his
bedroom, reserved for whatever the hell he needed that he found important.
Finally finishing off the bottle, he pushed it back, called the bartender, and
yet ordered another. The older man nodded and went off.
A
light ding alerted him that once more, the population within the bar
decreased by one.
The
black-haired man came back with said beer, and Peters paid before taking it and
drinking. From his left, he could hear faint singing of someone older, perhaps
singing a song composed in the 70’s. From his right, he could hear the
bartender conversing with the same person as a while back. Curiosity getting
the best of him, he turned to look.
A
few stools away sat a woman, with dark hair covering her face, wearing a jacket and pants. In her
hands was a small glass, and she was merely playing with the rim as she
conversed with the man. Peters looked away, but froze as he heard something
peculiar coming from her mouth.
“…bloody
work driving me up the wall, it’s a large pain.”
“Take
a break.”
“With
my kind of job, it isn’t possible.”
“I
wish you luck, then.”
Peters
felt like slamming his face into the cold marble counter as he recognized the
familiar, disgruntled British accent that accompanied her tone. Or rather, the
voice that dripped with sarcasm and slight bitterness. Perhaps it was the
German in her. Or was it the English?
The
hell he knew. For all he cared, his homeland ousted the British and defeated
the Germans.
“Peters?”
And
once more he turned. Yep, that was her. Same outfit, same hair, same glass in
her right hand. Except her clothes looked a little wrinkled and her hair was a
little messed in some places, but it was still the snarky Team Lead he came to
work with. He nodded in her direction. Best be polite, even outside the
building, rather than have her rage in his face.
“A,
nice seeing you here.”
“Hm.
Didn’t see you when I came in.” She took a drink from the small glass. “How
long have you been here?” he glanced at his wrist watch, the time reading
12:04AM.
“Around
an hour or an hour and a half. Not really a long time.”
“Ah.”
She set the glass down.
Silence
surrounded both of them. All of the sudden, the bartender seemed to disappear
into the back. Peters willed for him to come back and converse with A. This was
getting a little on the awkward side.
“You didn’t stay overtime?” might as well
attempt to make conversation.
“No,
I had to come here and let off some steam. If I stayed, it would be my fifth
night going overtime.” How arrogant. “I hope this month’s pay is worth it.”
“Why’re
you hoping?” he snorted. “Don’t you have enough cash to roll in?”
“I
don’t. Not yet, at least.”
“Huh.
I’m a little surprised. Seeing as you’ve got quite the house back there.”
She
shrugged. “Used the money left for me.”
“And
now you’re trying to make ends meet?”
“Exactly.”
She shot him a look. “Our stories aren’t as far off as I thought, Peters.”
“That
surprises me,” the brunette muttered as he drank. She left her glass untouched.
“Thought you’d be relaxing at this point, back home with your comfy bed and
coffee mug in hand. Sort of like the type of girl back in America, living alone
or whatever bullshit they pull back there.”
“As
a matter of fact, I’m not. I’m over here. And even if I were to be at home this
very minute, I’d be working and drinking whatever I could get my hands on. In
the living room. I’d probably sleep on the couch if I had to.” She watched him.
“And in case you’re wondering, it isn’t a two floor extravaganza. I’d be stuck
in a debt if I even tried to purchase that type of home.”
“Mm.
So what’s it look like?”
She
thought for a moment. “It’s two floors. But my room and the bathroom only
consist of the second floor. The first is mainly the living room, kitchen, and
dining room. Kitchen and dining room are adjacent. Step into the house and the
first thing you see is the living room.”
“Huh.
Sounds better than the apartment I live in.”
“Describe
it.”
“I
don’t need to climb flights of stairs to get to it, I just park in my spot and
it’s there. Around five steps of stairs lead to my front door. Go in, and
there’s a kitchen to your left that shares the dining room and the living room
to the right. Walk north – past the living room – there’s a door that leads to
my bedroom. In the bedroom, to the right
is another door. Go in there and there’s a bathroom. Nothing special, really.
It’s great for late night beer and Sunday night sports that I can’t even
understand because it's in goddamn Japanese and there aren’t any subtitles.”
She
snickered.
“What’s
so funny?”
“Nothing.
I find your lacking ability to speak the language amusing.”
“Well,
not all of us can be experts in more than two dialects, green-eyes.”
“Calm
the fuck down.” She gave him a long look. “I can’t speak a lick of the
language. Just the basics.”
“Huh.
Really?” she nodded. “Then that must be why you were talking to Mr. Bartender
in English.”
“He
spoke it first after I attempted to ask how much a shot of vodka was.”
Peters
smirked. “He must have felt sorry for you, then.”
The
comment, he expected, was to be met with anger. But she didn't even blink as
she replied, “I guess so.” She looked up, smiled as the bartender came back,
and asked for yet another shot. “I mean, think of it. Girl from England moves
to Tokyo with no knowledge about said place.”
He
stared at her.
“You’re
starting to weird me out. At this point, we’d be at each others’ throats.”
The
black-haired woman merely shrugged. “I’m not in the mood for arguments, Peters.
I just want a nice night for drinking and getting my ass home before I can kill
myself because of drunk driving.”
“You
go ahead and do that.” He lifted his bottle. “I’ll just finish this beer.”
* * *
* *
Samuel Peters’ first
impression of Arianne Maxwell was a calm, quite pretty agent who kept to
herself because she didn't want to deal with anyone else. Upon meeting her, he
realized that only the third assumption was correct. (Maybe even the second,
but finding her attractive was just like finding diamond in a random piece of
coal – it just couldn’t happen.) When he finally got to know her, he realized
she was the following:
1. Irritable
2. Bitter
3. Unstable
4. Emotional
5. Unable to handle her liquor well
The fifth point was realized
after taking her to a bar for the first time to cool her jets. It ended with
Touta having to bring her back home in his car, and Peters struggling to
comprehend what had just happened. So basically, his attraction to her popped
and he merely found her irritating. It took a long time for them to get used to
each other, and he was quite sure he would never fully understand her.
He believed she would never
understand him as well.
But with the whole recent
events that had just occurred, he couldn’t figure out why she wasn’t as angry
or cross or short-fused. Her good days usually occurred randomly, and Peters
would only realize that at the end of the day, suddenly wondering why she
hadn’t yelled or swore or growled in frustration. Maybe it was the alcohol, he
thought. It always seemed to calm the nerves of whoever drank.
Or maybe it was because she
simply needed some time out, just like him.
He sighed and turned to the
silent woman, who was merely staring at her phone.
“Spill it, what did you really
come here for?”
“Do I need a reason?”
“People don’t drink for no
reason in the middle of the night.”
“They sometimes do.”
“That’s not the point. You
went here because of something.”
“And why do you care?” Peters
paused. Why did he care? “My personal life doesn’t mean anything to you,
Peters.”
“I’m just trying to make
conversation,” He snapped. “If you want to sulk in here and drink until you
need to get a cab, I’m okay with that. Jesus Christ, I had no idea how touchy
women were these days…”
Despite his grumbling, his
ears didn’t fail to catch the soft reply.
“I need to think. Think of how
to get everything back in order, try to balance work and myself. In case you
haven’t noticed, I spend about eighty percent of a single week in that
building.”
“And the twenty percent at
home?”
“Usually. Fifteen at home at
five at the bar, however, if I need it.” A sighed. “You don’t know, do you?”
“Know what?”
A bitter
smirk came to her lips. “How much I envy you, Samuel.”
It took
him some time to comprehend that, and she let him take all the time he needed. She
could see the disbelief in his blue eyes, how he struggled to understand that
one sentence, those six words that meant nothing and everything at the same
time. She kept the smirk on her lips and drank once more, patiently waiting for
him to get a reply out of those lips stained with beer.
Finally,
he managed to speak. “You must be drunk already.”
She laughed.
“No, I’m not. I meant every word.”
“So let
me get this straight. You envy me?” Peters felt like he had been
transported to another dimension. When in the world would A envy a man such as
himself? His arrogance turned his thoughts towards appearance, but his common
sense pushed it away. No, it wasn’t that. It was something else.
But what?
“I do.” At that she looked down, staring at the glass
in her hands. “It sounds ridiculous, but it’s true.”
“What
the fuck do you envy about me?” he couldn’t stop himself from asking. “You’re a
rank higher and live in a place worth more than mine. People at the office
respect you like they respect J – they don’t fear you, but there’s still some
respect in there.”
“It’s
not in terms of economics or status or respect.” She hesitated a little bit. “It’s
with love.”
And at
that moment, Peters realized one thing.
She was
totally, undeniably, fucking wrong.
“You’re
wrong.”
A frown
lit her features. “Excuse me?”
“If you
think those one night stands and trips from the bar are classified as love,
then you’re dead wrong.” He took a pack of cigarettes and a lighter out of his
pocket. “That’s lust, A. There’s a difference. When you’re in love, you make
love. When you’re in lust, you fuck. Love isn’t equivalent to lust, and it will
never be.” Pausing, he took the moment to light the cigarette. “I haven’t found
love in Tokyo ever since I moved here. The last time I was in love, I was in
Bronx and I was in high school and I was stupid.”
“…perhaps
I worded it wrongly.”
“That’s what
I’m thinking.” The American took a drag. “What you must have meant is that you
envy the company I tend to have outside of work.”
What
you don't know is that I’d rather have your situation.
He eyed
her. “You’re much too young to even experience love, A. What are you, nineteen
going twenty? There’s a ton more in store for you, and love has to be the least
of your problems. But I’ll tell you something. Something that I’ve learned over
my years of playing and dating with lust on the mind.”
She merely
looked at him, waiting.
“When it
comes, it’ll be worth it.”
* * * * *
At the
end of the night, both people bade each other goodbye, going their separate ways.
Peters drove his car back to his apartment, and A rode her motorcycle back
home. Samuel Peters could tell that he had given her a lot to think about. As he
stepped into his apartment and locked the door, the man could only stare around
himself and look at the things around him, then walked to the bedroom and shut
the door.
As she
locked her own bedroom door and sat on the bed, she tried to absorb the events
of the evening. Confessions, talks, revelations…she wondered if he was right. If
it was worth waiting for. Her eyes glanced at the still phone on the bedside
table and she took it into her hands, pressing the button and merely glancing
at the picture that greeted her.
Blue eyes.
Cheeky grin.
“When
it comes, it’ll be worth it.”
A sincerely
hoped that he was worth the wait.
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