Doomsday
“After
pulling it, hold on to the bar and don’t let go – you hear me, Arianne?” she
nodded grimly and they both walked to the levers, one on the right side and the
other on the left. “Once we pull it, it should open up the breach and pull them
in – both the Daleks and the Cybermen. So,” he paused, glancing at her. “Are
you ready?” a pained smile came to her face as well as a nod, and he counted:
“One. Two. THREE!”
Pulls
occurred at the exact same moment, and they raced to the magnetic clamps on the
walls. Quickly holding on, she shut her eyes as the breach opened, and
immediately what they had planned happened. As it opened, it sucked everything
into it, from Dalek to Cyberman to the desk in the front and the water bottle
left on the floor. The Doctor grinned with glee as everything was sucked in.
Opening
her eyes, Arianne felt victorious.
That
is, until her eyes spotted the lever threatening to return to its original
position. Her mind did the math. If that thing went back to original position,
the breach would close and the aliens would close upon them. Their mission
would fail and it would mean an end to her and to her the Doctor by her
side. His promise loomed in her mind, that everyone would live. Everybody would
be saved.
She
had never forgotten.
She let
go of the bar and caught the lever, pushing it back.
At
that, the Doctor yelled.
“WHAT
ARE YOU DOING?!”
“I
had to push it back!” she screamed back at him. “The thing could have returned
to its place and the whole thing would have failed!”
“Why
would you do that!?”
“To
keep your promise!”
A
desolate feeling was etched into his gaze.
“You
must hold on, no matter what – do you understand?”
She
nodded, just like at the beginning. But he could see her eyes, usually filled
with teasing, up to the brim with fear. She bit her lip to hold back a scream
and he could see her hold on tighter to the lever, holding tighter and tighter
and unwilling to let go.
Finally,
the last Dalek flew into the breach and he smiled. But that smile quickly
vanished as her hand slipped. “Don’t let go, damn it, don’t let go!”
“I’m
trying, you stupid fucking ginger – I’m trying!”
It
pulled stronger and stronger, aiming to drag her in.
Eyes
widening with horror, he stretched out his hand to her. So close, so close.
“Take
my hand,” he begged.
For
once, he didn’t care if he himself perished.
He
just wanted her safe.
She
reached out, other hand clinging to the
lever.
Their
hands went closer and closer and closer.
She
gave him a look of desperation, forgetting every name, every curse she called
him. She just wanted to grab his hand and be safe. Every memory of them in
danger went away, and she struggled, wanting to touch his hand, wanting to be
safe with him. Even if it meant losing her family elsewhere, she just wanted
her and the Doctor safe. Safe from harm and danger and from the Daleks and the
Cybermen.
But
a part of her knew that couldn’t happened.
Her
hand slipped. A scream ripped from her mouth, calling the Doctor. She could
feel the tears slipping down her face and she could hear his scream, his scream
for her. Looking at him, she could only see the anguish in his eyes as she
moved closer and closer to the Void. She tried screaming again, but it felt
like her voice died in her throat and all she could do was watch him as he watched
her slip from his fingers.
Pain.
Unbearable
pain.
Pain
that he couldn’t save her.
Pain
that she had to go.
Pain
that she would never have another adventure with him.
Each
truth was a stab to the chest with a sharp shard of glass. Each scream of his
was a torment to her ears and caused a burn in her chest. Her tears blinded her
and she attempted to scream his name one more, just one last time before she
disappeared from his sighed.
“DOCTOR!”
From
the Doctor’s gaze, seeing her fly away from him caused a tear in his two
hearts, something he had felt so many times before and never wanted to feel
again. She had screamed his name once, twice, and he didn’t want to hear it anymore.
But those screams rang on.
Echoing.
Never
forgotten.
A
flash of light came, and to his disbelief, a man caught her. He could see her
look back at him with shock, and the light came back. They disappeared, not
vanishing into the Void, but deep inside, he knew she was saved. For a price.
The
Void eventually closed up and he steadied himself on the ground. The Doctor was
everything he was at that moment, a man born in flame and rage and hate and ice
and terror –
He
was numb.
* * * * *
“TAKE
ME BACK! GODDAMN IT, TAKE ME BACK!” she shrieked at the man, punching his chest
with tears streaming down her face. Samuel could only look at her in sadness,
shaking his head. A frustrated Arianne grabbed the teleportation device from
him and pushed the button on the center repeatedly, refusing to believe that
she couldn’t be taken back to where he was, to where she belonged. “Why won’t
it work?” she whispered, throwing it onto the floor.
The
people behind her looked on with sad expressions. Samuel sighed and watched
her. Jean looked at him for confirmation.
“He
did it. The breach was sealed.”
More
anger came from her. She punched the wall, screaming and crying, demanding to
be taken back to him. Samuel attempted to reach out to her, but the blue-eyed
woman right next to him sent him a frosty glare. She had to absorb it. She had
to accept it.
She
had to know.
“Take
me back…”
She
leaned her forehead against the cold wall and her sobs turned fainter, more
quiet. The agents behind could only watch her. As she shut her eyes, the
green-eyed woman thought she could hear something, something from the other
side. A few steps walking to where she was, perhaps? Wiping her eyes, the woman
pressed her ear against the wall, trying to listen.
“D-Doctor…?”
No
response from the other side.
A
shaky sigh came from her.
“Doctor,
if you can hear me…” she paused and when she spoke, her voice broke at the last
word. “I’m sorry…I’m so, so sorry….” The woman inhaled sharply. “Forgive me.”
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